Tuesday, August 16, 2011

I've been searching for an answer for too long and now im about to spill it all here?

please someone help if anyone reads this. i feel different from everyone, not in the way that you probably think (im not an outcast). i have my friends, function more than well in society, considered attractive,etc, very intelligent especially with people skills but i feel 'deeper' than most people. when people feel good or happy or in the dumps i feel that same emotion, magnified times ten. i am not just making this up, i talk to my peers and they admit to not thinking in the same way as i describe. i am not saying i am better than anyone, soemtimes i wish i was normal, i wish i didn't overthink stuff and feel so deeply about absolutely everything. i think of love, life, thoughts, emotions constantly. driving on the highway seems average to most, i see colors and beauty in it all. a three hour plane ride i see everyone keeping busy in books, newspaper (i think thats awesome) but i stare out the window and try to see down below and just think of life. i am said to have high intelligence i dont know if that has something to do with how i feel but it's just getting tougher and tougher because i search for answers all the time. i feel severe motivation, there is something inside of me waiting to be unleashed and i'm trying to figure it out all the time. heart to hearts with people are everything to me. i like to dig beyond the surface. i feel the worlds pain every single day. any thoughts? i don't know what the hell is wrong with me but i need answers i dont feel normal, i knew i was different from day one and have loved every minute of it but...

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